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NMWBY

Stay, go
Waiting for the answer
No longer silent
Not my will but Yours
Not the easy road but the right one
You lead me in the path of righteousness
Led astray
Selfish desire
Impatient
Unkind
Demanding my own will
Not my will but Yours
Not my will but Yours

Not my will

but

Yours

Lies

I haven’t written in a very long time… well, for fun, I mean. This semester has been difficult for me. Not because of the course load but because I had lost my motivation. After having failed that course three consecutive times, I was drained. At first, I was so excited that I could finally follow my passion: I would be taking the steps to become and English teacher. But there was really more to it than that and I really didn’t take into account that I was becoming burnt out. I have been taking college courses for the last 5 years (sometimes part time and others full time): every summer, every winter break and, of course, every regular semester. That rigorousness of the schedule began to take a toll on me the last semester and I am reaping the results of my lackadaisical with every grade that I have earned… it’s sad really.

The absolute worst part about this is that I promised myself that I would keep this blog up and running. My last entry was about holding truth as my highest value and, right after that, I commenced to lying. I did not keep my word and keep this blog up. So, I will set a new goal: I will update this blog at least twice a month. NO EXCEPTIONS. I don’t know what the theme will be but I will be writing. I must write.

Truth: Soul Armor

If we took a survey of what virtue people value most I wonder what the consensus would be? Would it be integrity? Honesty? Morality? What is it that allows people to lie to your face without so much as a twitch or even the slightest hint of guilt? What about husbands and wives and boyfriends and girlfriends that cheat on each other and never come clean to the one they offended? Me, I value truth above all else. The reason why is because, if you really think about it, all the virtues can be summed up in that one 5 letter word: T-R-U-T-H. Truth is knowing without a even the smallest doubt that something or someone is what he or she says she is. Truth is being confident in your role in your family, relationships, workplace. If there is not truth then there is no trust. And if we have no trust… what.do.we.have?

Solid

In the face of opposition I will stand my ground.
Who are you to tell me what I can and cannot do?
Are you my Creator?
Do you have any control over my destiny?
I think not.
The God I serve SPOKE the heavens and the earth into creation.
The God I serve has a plan and purpose for my life.
The God I serve loved ME enough to sacrifice His Son.
The God I serve says that I am more than a conqueror through Him.
You can say what you want
And think what you want.
It has no effect on me.
Opposition, go ahead and find anotha’ sucka
: I am standing
on SOLID ground.

a dream deferred...

I'm sam.i.am and I'm an English major.

I have officially changed my major back to English! (Cue applause) The math thing (although I love it) was not working out. I was feeling quite dumb to be honest and realistically I need to finish school so I can begin teaching already! I put myself 1.5 years behind pursuing the math thing and though I do plan on accomplishing that goal in my lifetime, right now, I am going to focus on my love, English, and earn my bachelor’s degree in that field. With the knowledge that I already have in mathematics, I can probably test for my endorsement for K-8 math… for now, I am fine with that. It just gives me yet another goal to work towards.

So from this information, you can deduce the outcome of Calc Redo and Calc Take 3. I’m not giving up per se; I am just putting it on hold.

La-a out!

Gettin' 'Er Done!

Summer Session II is underway and I am working really hard to do the very best that I can in what I like to call my “Calc Redo.” Remember in the 90s when Pepsi attempted (not so successfully) to market the Pepsi remix soda…that’s my inspiration… except I will be successful. Since I am a follower of Christ, I believe that I can get assurance and peace from the Word of God a.k.a. the Bible. The scripture that I am standing on is Phillipians 4:13- “I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me.”

Another thing that I am doing to ensure that I am doing my absolute best is that I am going to the Rec. Center to exercise and get the blood flowing to my brain before I go to tutoring. I’m not playing around! I want to be able to say at the end of this that I did the best that I possibly could. I’m not sure if I could live with myself doing only a portion of my best.