NMWBY

Stay, go
Waiting for the answer
No longer silent
Not my will but Yours
Not the easy road but the right one
You lead me in the path of righteousness
Led astray
Selfish desire
Impatient
Unkind
Demanding my own will
Not my will but Yours
Not my will but Yours

Not my will

but

Yours

Lies

I haven’t written in a very long time… well, for fun, I mean. This semester has been difficult for me. Not because of the course load but because I had lost my motivation. After having failed that course three consecutive times, I was drained. At first, I was so excited that I could finally follow my passion: I would be taking the steps to become and English teacher. But there was really more to it than that and I really didn’t take into account that I was becoming burnt out. I have been taking college courses for the last 5 years (sometimes part time and others full time): every summer, every winter break and, of course, every regular semester. That rigorousness of the schedule began to take a toll on me the last semester and I am reaping the results of my lackadaisical with every grade that I have earned… it’s sad really.

The absolute worst part about this is that I promised myself that I would keep this blog up and running. My last entry was about holding truth as my highest value and, right after that, I commenced to lying. I did not keep my word and keep this blog up. So, I will set a new goal: I will update this blog at least twice a month. NO EXCEPTIONS. I don’t know what the theme will be but I will be writing. I must write.